urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:12507 12507 12507 2008-01-09T19:02:26Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:12507:14820 2008-01-09T19:02:26Z 2008-01-09T19:02:26Z <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/friends/add.bml?user=10808">ADD MY NEW LIVEJOURNAL</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:12507:14245 2008-01-08T12:53:01Z 2008-01-08T16:38:25Z I was driving to Wareham (once again) at 6:45 this morning, listening to soda fountain classics (once again) with these tears coming down my face (once again).<br /><br />Except I was crying not because I was sad, I was yesterday... but today is different.<br />I don't know why I was.<br />This has all been so emotionally exhaustingly but I'll be fucking damned if it brings me down.<br />I've gone threw too much, I know better & I am fucking FABULOUS.<br />The past three years I do not regret,<br />I am going to embrace them and the extreme emotions that have erupted inside of me.<br />I am turning this all into a positive, I can't believe and I don't understand how this has happened.<br />I know what I want to be when I grow up.<br />I literally saw my future.<br />I know what I was meant to be and it is something bigger than any fucking guy I have ever dated will ever be & I don't even have to be in a rock'n roll band to make it happen because I am actually doing something with my life for the right reasons.<br />I am going to be known for my knowledge & insight & my perceptive ways & I'll be damned if I do anything but let this experience make me that much stronger of a woman.<br />I am so much better than anything and everything I have ever let myself think I was equal to.<br />I want people to look at wish they could be as strong of a person as I am.<br />You guys have no idea, no fucking idea.<br />Aaaahhh!<br />I have so much more to say but I have wasted too much time already.<br />I'm getting myself an education and a fucking promising future.<br />I have everything I need inside of me to make this happen and you could only wish you had the same.<br /><br /><br />I don't doubt I loved Matt Burke,<br />I don't doubt that Matt Burke loves me (and her) in whatever twisted sort of way he loves people,<br />but my idea of who he was is extremely different from who he really is.<br />He has a problem, a really big problem & I hope he gets the help he needs.<br />I hope it isn't too late for him to understand his mind & for him to feel the want to overcome the monster in his head.<br />Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!<br />I feel so fucking good.<br /><br />Love LIFE!<br /><br />Always always always stronger than yesterday. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:12507:645 2007-12-06T03:10:28Z 2007-12-11T00:08:09Z <center><br /><br />Locked.</center>